Although meant to be comical, my last post showed how our past experiences, the “evidences” from which we place a value for making future decisions, can affect the quality of our lives, because it affects how we respond to the world.
I grew up in a very Catholic, somewhat Americanized, Asian household = belief in the fair gamut of the unscientific. My best friend grew up in a non-religious, very traditional Asian household = maybe some superstitions but nothing with conviction. She went into the very scientific world of medicine; I went into the possibilities gateway of education (before I meandered onto the threshold of Where Dreams Come True, where I presently stand).
Throughout the years, we’ve each experienced traumatic events that have affected some of our beliefs today, whether on a conscious or unconscious level, and thus, have affected some of our actions and decisions accordingly.
I will share more of my story as we go along, but I want you to consider what life events happened to you that may be the source of why you do the things you do, or the source of your fears in life: what things were you told, did you witness, were you taught to “never forget” in order to be safe/loved/worthy?
Know that those messages of guilt-guided obligations, those lessons of yesteryear’s fear factors, are FALSE.
This is not to say that there is no truth in the past, but that the past has no weight-bearing truth in the present; it only bears the amount of weight today that you allow it to. Worse, the further you carry it, the more the weight fuses into you: you shape your arm muscles around this giant rock, and they stiffen, fossilize so you can keep hanging on to it as seamlessly as possible. And you agonize and blame the journey for being so difficult, slow, uneventful, unfortunate, all while voluntarily carrying this load.
Well, LET IT GO.
Let it go, and take a stretch. Things might hurt a little, feel a little funky, but what do you expect—you’ve been carrying this tremendous burden, hunchbacked and gnarl-knuckled, for all this time! Feeling strange – it’s good, particularly if the familiar was not good. Stretch your arms wide and high towards the sky. Lift up your chin to the light. Take a slow, deep, delicious breath.
That is you,
coming back to life,